Creating a New Identity

#9

[SB – I hope you find that imitation is the highest form of flattery. Your format is so much better.]

 

Hate the judgment, not the judgers.                                                                                                                           We’re familiar with the Christian phrase, “Hate the sin, not the sinner.” That we’re labeled “sinners” is somewhat offensive. There’s an essence of negative judgment, even in their attempt to be tolerant. However, I’ve noticed a similar trend among former Christians. It’s not uncommon to see terms thrown around like, Xtian, fundies and GAWD, apparent put downs of the Christians and faith we find abusive. My aim in this post is not to minimize the atrocities deconverts have suffered from the Christian faith, but to encourage deconverts not to replace the deficient identity we have escaped with a one that ties us to the old and inhibits our progress in recovery. I’m hoping you will see the connection as you read further.

A word of validation.                                                                                                                                                      Though I do not endorse disrespect of anyone, I’m not throwing any rocks, either. Sometimes deconversion is excruciating and anger is a normal step toward healing. Deconverts have suffered a ton of cruel brainwashing – feeling corrupt for having natural questions and doubts about their faith; experiencing rejection and criticism from church leaders, so-called friends and even family; and fearing themselves so deplorable to God they’re deserving of an eternity in the horrors of hell (I lack adequate words to describe the mental torture of that). It sometimes takes years to deprogram all the lies, so ingrained they become. Recovery is a process of going through the painful stages of loss, finding a new identity, purpose and new coping skills. Resentment is certainly understandable, even natural.

However, what is natural is not always healthy, productive or responsible.                                       Yes, responsible. If we carry a torch for the church, the faith, whatever – we’re looking back and not forward. I’m not talking of speaking out against the abuses of the church, the inaccuracies of the Bible or the absurd doctrines promoted. There is a way to assert one’s self with mutual respect. What I’m wanting to convey is that, regardless of what injustices we have suffered, ultimately each of us is responsible for our own well-being. If we tangle ourselves in petty arguments, condescension and mockery, have we moved from the stage of anger to recovery? Are we not still looking back? Do we dispense the type of judgment we’ve come to despise? Do we define ourselves by the pain we’ve suffered?

We are more than deconverts.                                                                                                                                                   At least, I am. I’m moving forward. I have a life, an identity and interests outside of my deconversion from Christianity. Yes, it was a big deal. I’m still dealing with the aftermath. However, I will not let it consume me or inhibit my current and future happiness, my wholeness anymore. My blog is about healing and moving forward. I invite others to join me. What have been the greatest challenges for you? What has helped you? How can we help each other heal and build our lives by our own design and values instead of having it molded for us into the image of an impossible standard? As we seek to recover, let us take the high road. Honor our truth. Honor our pain. And do it without getting stuck there, getting lost in it, making another dysfunctional identity of it. Let’s take responsibility for making recovery happen.

 

I’d love to hear your perspective in the comments.

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7 thoughts on “Creating a New Identity

  1. I think what gets me the most is the dishonesty and cruelty of the ones who say they love as Christ loved, when I’m trying engage on another’s post from a position of dialogue. Then there is the inevitable blocking, deleting and editing of comments that comes with an unwillingness to honestly dialogue. I use my blog as a forum they can’t control to continue the discussion and ask for more input, even inviting Christians to engage there unhindered in ways they hinder me

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      • It sure seems like it. Thx. I do keep inviting others here to my place. Often when I dialogue at Christian places, they will end up blocking and deleting comments, even if I’m not rude or profane. I want my blog to be a zone for open discussion

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  2. It’s tough balancing mutual respect with maintaining one’s boundaries as a former Christian. You raise some good points in that one shouldn’t find a new form of bondage when casting off the chains of a previous form. Sadly, this doesn’t always happen.

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    • You got it. It’s not easy, especially when the one with whom you would dialogue doesn’t exercise the same respect.
      Btw, SB – I copied a format from you (headings above the paragraphs) because I think it makes the post so engaging and flow better. What do you think?

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